Lavender's Dungeon

You met me when I was still broken

The worst parts of me have come to life

under your careful gaze

We both sought comfort

Keeping our feelings hidden

as we explored each other in the night

in the smoke stained walls of my place

We both needed somewhere to rest our heads

Two failed relationships we thought were forever

We talked throughout the nights

Tear stained cheeks when we talked about

our similar traumas

I remember the night she called you

over and over

I pretended to be asleep

I pretended to not care

I was the other woman once

I refused to let it happen again

—

So we kept it casual

Bonding over our mishaps

Enjoying each other

And as we sunk deeper into intimacy

We crashed and ignited

For the first time in my life

I believed you

when you said you didn’t love her anymore

I understood

in the same ways that I fell out of love with him

Slowly

And then all at once

A slap in the face

—

I said

This is the last risk

The last time I trust someone

whose heart still belonged

to another

You get one chance

I knew it was going to cause another eternal wound

—

But to my surprise

you showed me everything

Opened up like an old book

and I read every single page

—

My favorite book is the story of us

Now we have two chapters together

I didn’t know the world could be this beautiful

For the past two years I’ve lived

as if I was walking on beams of light

I can trust someone

If I ever have doubts you reassure me

You show me how to love

You’ve painted a portrait of how love is supposed to look

To feel

—

My favorite memories with you are laughing until my lungs collapse

You holding my face in your hands

Kissing me awake and asleep

Dancing around the kitchen

Moving your things into my place

Everything I create is a dream to you

You worship me

and I’ve never loved anyone more

—

I can’t wait to get eloped with you

in the mountains

I can’t wait to leave this fucking small town with you

I can’t wait to see all of the world with you

I’m yours

forever.

Love,

Lavender Dustan

11/29/22